About to pop a vessel

So im sitting here stressing about a job opportunity.
Long story short, i got a job offer accepted, got another job offer and decided to take that one instead, same company...but now people think I might be blackballed.

but I thought and thought and thought and granted I do want a job (i am getting hired) im not going to be in the freakin mortgage business forever! get outta here w/that mess!

I'm dreaming big! I just cant wait to start school again and finish this screenplay.

Reaching for the stars so if I fall i'll land on a cloud.

Thanks 'ye.

- Shae

Ugly People

So I was on this messageboard and the topic is Ugly people...and why are Ugly people pretty much unaccepted in todays society.


...

I will answer this question once I figure out the secret to life.

o_0

People

are very very funny.

Everyone thinks they're right.

=]

Nervous

You know that feeling when you're super nervous about something and your stomach starts to knot up?

Experiencing that right now.

write right wright

write write write

right right right

wright wright wright

the write and right obviously makes sense, you know like 'hey you need to write right' but i just threw in that wright cause two rights didnt seem right...my soul felt slightly incomplete...tad bit unbalanced.

ANYWHO!

I've been writing and writing and writing...I just hope this all pays off.
Every idea I get I've been writing down...and I do mean EVERY idea.
Before this I would get an idea try to memorize it even though it never worked and try to write it down later. but as the thought fairies graced me w/their presence dousing me with magical thinking juice which enhanced my brainstorm.

think, think, think
write, write, write

- shae

Quick Brainstorm

This is a brainstorm for characters in my story (all of this is true btw)

There's a husky black woman w/short hair that lives across the street from me. She's in a relationship w/a husky white man. He looks like he's from down south so I thought this pairing to be exceptionally strange. There are two other women living in the house i'm guessing they are their children in some way or another. One is a wee bit on the hefty side as well, she has long thick curly hair (I take her to be mixed.) The other is really thin and dresses like a stud, hats, baggy jeans, moo-moo sized shirts. They have two dogs, a chihuahua and what looks like a pomeranian. Everytime the black woman exits her house to take them to 'go potty' she is ALWAYS in her night clothes. I understand people do this, I've done it. Granted, I dont usually sleep in clothes that look like pajamas. BUT! All the time, it never fails. I wonder what she does all day, from the outside looking in it looks like absolutely nothing. I dont know her so I cant and wont say but it doesnt hurt to wonder...uq

Thoughts of an Open mind.

I've been thinking, and im not trying to be sentimental or sappy because I really dont want to get my keyboard wet but...

soul searching...
I use to think it was a myth, something people made up just so that they could excuse my french but fu-...gosh I cant curse on here...let me partially start over..something people made up just so that they could have an excuse to mess up or fool aroud or experiment...so that the validation would be 'research.'

I'm 23 years of I haven't finished school, I just lost my job and things arent exactly amazing on the home front, so to speak.

I've been thinking about alot of things lately, questioning absolutely everything.
Then I feel guilty and I try to supress this...(what feels like) doubt that I have about certain things. Wondering whats truth and whats a lie. Wondering, no waiting, no hoping that judgment wont be passed upon me because I dare to question things.

I'm not going to get too deep right now but I'm tired of doing things out of obligation out of making people happy, pleasing people...then I walk around feeling hypocritical.

I do still believe in most things, I just wonder...
I would say I need prayer, but right now I truly dont know what I need.

- <3 Shae

Shae the Screenwriter

So some of you might know this already but I want to be a screenwriter/filmmaker/actress. I'm mostly interested in screenwriting and filmmaking. Love the stuff.

Well, I always write but I just play around. I've never actually written a piece of work aside from poetry. So I've decided that I need to start taking a step towards my dreams...I'm going to attempt to write my own screenplay!

I'm deathly afraid of attempting to try something I love and watch it all go up in smoke. So wish me luck!

- Love, Shae

Friends are amaaaaaazing!

I love friends. I have very few but the ones I have are amazing.
No matter how close we are, super close or slightly close.
I'm happy...i would like to say grateful (but I can be a very ungrateful) person.

I love my family too but thats for another day.

- <3 shae

Ok Ok Girl Complex numero uno

I'm a huge smart ass and i'm a highly sarcastic person.
This I know...
but what I realized is that I cant stand for my bf to be sarcastic with me.
I guess its a 'Girlfriend Complex'...because the insecure part of me comes out...
The 'stop making fun of me side', like i noticed that my favorite phrase towards him is..."You're so mean to me." It doesn't really have to be all that mean, it could be a light-weight joke but I have to get all butt hurt about it.

I can't help it, I see it as if I wasnt this way around him and I wasn't affected by anything he said to me then there would be a problem.

- <3 shae

HAH-VAD! / Boston Bay-bee!

So I went to boston 2-3 weeks ago...

entered in a salsa competition.

All in all, I had a jolly good time.






- <3 Shae

Redondo Beach

Me and Alan at Redondo beach.
My first time there, this was a few months back.

- <3 Shae

What part of recession dont you understand?!

So I just got laid off! oh i'm sorry that's not professional...
let me rephrase that...im 'in between jobs' =]
First, not a good feeling!
Second, WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!
Third, I got my eye on you Obama...im waiting on that 'change'

-sighs-

c'est la vie.

- Shae

The Great Adventures of Shae & Joelle

i <3 her. just watch. =]

(ē-dā fēks')

I highly doubt anyone was wondering what idee fixe meant...
but if you were...

here ya go.

i·dée fixe (ē-dā fēks')
n. pl. i·dées fixes (ē-dā fēks')
A fixed idea; an obsession.

[French : idée, idea + fixe, fixed.]

The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition
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Thee VOW

So i made a vow like .00023689 seconds ago...as soon as i clicked NEW POST...
that i would blog everyday. No matter how short...

I cant say the same for my videos...or can i???

Hmm....dont know how that would work but maybe i should try...i guess.

???

Idk, we'll see. Remember that blockage i told you about...

well hasnt really let up.
I mean i made one video since that blockage blog but im still stopped up.

hehe ... stopped up.

im immature i know...and you still love me...

all 4 of you damn readers.

I think my problem is I search for things to blog/vlog about when i dont look at the simple things that happens around me....

like when i got skipped over at kfc because the stupid lady pressed the wrong button, or how this black girl i know thinks everyone is racist towards black people, or how i moved into a new apt....grandparentals intact, or how the woman across the street makes her boyfriend move out of her special parking spot just so she can park there....or how my grandparents are semi-depressed about moving into an apt after over 40 years of living in houses, etc.

i guess there is stuff out there to blog/vlog about...it a take a second look.

...new video coming soon.

=]

- shae

awkwaaaaaaaaaaaaard

ok so after 22 years of living it just dawned on me, that when you're in a public restroom you can hear people pee and they can hear you pee...
ok well i've always realized it but i JUST realized exactly how much it bothers me.
Like dude i can hear your pee TRICKLING! no bueno!

So after this epiphany i cant stand to be in the bathroom when someone else is in there its just way too awkward.

I actually have more to talk about on this public restroom biz, but it wont be in a blog it will be in a vlog so look out for that!

thanks for listening, i just love this invisible audience i have. its the bestest.

- shae

Blockage!!!

I totally had to writing something in this annoying ass little BOX!! it was driving me nuts because i cant possibly think of anything humorous (did i spell that right) or thoughtful or nice or "worth reading," TO SAY!!!! i wanna scream....wait....already did! i just had to write something in this freaking space! you dont understand....you really dont, this shit has been open on this very webpage for 2 days...im like ok i'll think of something soon and i couldn't think of ANYTHING!! so finally i said i'll just write about how frustrated this damn empty box is making me!

random: i just saw this man jog across the street.

-looks around-

yeaaaaaaaaaaah...anyway.

im having a ...

random: i just saw a car drive pass my house

sorry im addish...

so im having a blockage of sorts...with blogs, vlogs, movie scripts...
and its really pissing me off....a few days ago I had an epiphany of sorts (why the hell do i keep saying "of sorts") ignore it...anyway....i had an epiphany and i realized that I KRYSHAE denise ARCHER refuses to sit behind a desk or cubie for the rest of my entire life! I will not have it! I refuse I will follow my dreams and I will turn all non-believers into believers and I will prove to any and everyone who ever snickered laughed jeered (yeah im not using the correct punctuations! so what im a rebel dammit! you dont own me! hahahahahaha!) beehoovled (i made that one up, sue me)....anyone who ever had doubts about my career choice ... ever stuck their noses up at me...looked down on me...all of them...every single last one will be proven wrong. and I KRYSHAE denise ARCHER will indeed have the very last laugh...and oh how great that laugh will be!

thank you for listening to my rant...may God bless your soul for having to put up wit me....

love you all,

Shae

It's my birthday and i'll cry if I want too!

so today is my birthday. well not today but tomorrow. technically in an hour and a half. wow. im very old. i feel so antidelluvian, its ridiculous. im about to do a birthday vlog. it takes me forever to film and edit...you know chop it up all nice for the folks on youtube.

any-who!

back to being 22.

I was just reflecting a minute ago cause you now thats what old folks do. smh
I realized im happy, I'm not THAT depressed due to the fact that I do feel like my life is somewhat moving forward [might i add, very slowly at that]. If I didn't just get this new job [that is supposed to help me move out] I would probably be in the fetal position in some dark corner talking about "alms for the poor!!!" and thats is not cute in any way shape or form.

I'm with someone who makes me happy. I have a loving family. God loves me even though I have been slacking...smh.

The friends I DO have [which is few, and that includes family members] are amazing.

Im good, and as much as i complain about getting old. [In 8 years i'll be 30!! the hell kinda sense does that makeeeee?! -growls-]
I love living and I'm happy to be aging because you cant live without aging...so i'll take what I can get but if i happen to stumble upon the fountain of youth do not think [for a midget second] I will hesitate to throw myself in...I will drink that mess up like a DEHYDRATED crack head.

HELLO WORLD!

So...this is interesting. Nice little setup and all. Not a first time blogger but it is my first time having an actual blog...ya know with it's own little URL. I'm so nervous! Dont know why, really. I just am. I love writing and I love EXPRESSING myself! Especially through film. So you know since I like you guys so darn much I will be posting videos of myself as well. Alrighty then, A LOT has happened within the past few weeks and I do mean A LOT, this is just an introduction and i have to be at the hospital bright and early tomorrow so I wont go into detail JUST yet. Just know that WOW, Kryshae Archer is definitely growing up and although im not about to get into anything right now, "if you stick with me -wink & the gun- you'll go far kid." Ummm...not really but something interesting is BOUND to happen and hopefully I wont disappoint.

I love you guys and I hope you enjoy my blog!

- <3> Shae