About to pop a vessel

So im sitting here stressing about a job opportunity.
Long story short, i got a job offer accepted, got another job offer and decided to take that one instead, same company...but now people think I might be blackballed.

but I thought and thought and thought and granted I do want a job (i am getting hired) im not going to be in the freakin mortgage business forever! get outta here w/that mess!

I'm dreaming big! I just cant wait to start school again and finish this screenplay.

Reaching for the stars so if I fall i'll land on a cloud.

Thanks 'ye.

- Shae

Ugly People

So I was on this messageboard and the topic is Ugly people...and why are Ugly people pretty much unaccepted in todays society.


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I will answer this question once I figure out the secret to life.

o_0

People

are very very funny.

Everyone thinks they're right.

=]

Nervous

You know that feeling when you're super nervous about something and your stomach starts to knot up?

Experiencing that right now.

write right wright

write write write

right right right

wright wright wright

the write and right obviously makes sense, you know like 'hey you need to write right' but i just threw in that wright cause two rights didnt seem right...my soul felt slightly incomplete...tad bit unbalanced.

ANYWHO!

I've been writing and writing and writing...I just hope this all pays off.
Every idea I get I've been writing down...and I do mean EVERY idea.
Before this I would get an idea try to memorize it even though it never worked and try to write it down later. but as the thought fairies graced me w/their presence dousing me with magical thinking juice which enhanced my brainstorm.

think, think, think
write, write, write

- shae

Quick Brainstorm

This is a brainstorm for characters in my story (all of this is true btw)

There's a husky black woman w/short hair that lives across the street from me. She's in a relationship w/a husky white man. He looks like he's from down south so I thought this pairing to be exceptionally strange. There are two other women living in the house i'm guessing they are their children in some way or another. One is a wee bit on the hefty side as well, she has long thick curly hair (I take her to be mixed.) The other is really thin and dresses like a stud, hats, baggy jeans, moo-moo sized shirts. They have two dogs, a chihuahua and what looks like a pomeranian. Everytime the black woman exits her house to take them to 'go potty' she is ALWAYS in her night clothes. I understand people do this, I've done it. Granted, I dont usually sleep in clothes that look like pajamas. BUT! All the time, it never fails. I wonder what she does all day, from the outside looking in it looks like absolutely nothing. I dont know her so I cant and wont say but it doesnt hurt to wonder...uq

Thoughts of an Open mind.

I've been thinking, and im not trying to be sentimental or sappy because I really dont want to get my keyboard wet but...

soul searching...
I use to think it was a myth, something people made up just so that they could excuse my french but fu-...gosh I cant curse on here...let me partially start over..something people made up just so that they could have an excuse to mess up or fool aroud or experiment...so that the validation would be 'research.'

I'm 23 years of I haven't finished school, I just lost my job and things arent exactly amazing on the home front, so to speak.

I've been thinking about alot of things lately, questioning absolutely everything.
Then I feel guilty and I try to supress this...(what feels like) doubt that I have about certain things. Wondering whats truth and whats a lie. Wondering, no waiting, no hoping that judgment wont be passed upon me because I dare to question things.

I'm not going to get too deep right now but I'm tired of doing things out of obligation out of making people happy, pleasing people...then I walk around feeling hypocritical.

I do still believe in most things, I just wonder...
I would say I need prayer, but right now I truly dont know what I need.

- <3 Shae